What is a man? One of the definitions of a
man you will see in the dictionary is "a person with power or
authority" or the phrase "be a man" to mean:
courageous. Maybe you would prefer this detonation "free
to act; be independent." Are these definitions define what it is
to be a man? What makes a man a gentleman? The dictionary says "a
man of good social position of wealth and leisure" My mother says
that gentlemen is well matters and respectful. She says the
difference between a man and a gentleman is his matters.
Sexuality has nothing to do with being a man or a gentlemen, it
has nothing to do with being a human being or does it? This day
and age the definitions of a man changed but what about a
Those thoughts ran though my mind as I sat
across Patrick O'Hara a man with a mission for power and
manipulation to lie to the world. To put himself "In the
closet" to marry women to paint that portrait of societies
"The Family Man" he proposed:
"America and her people are not ready for its
Mayor to have a same sex marred man with children. They could
never be president. Before that could happen, a woman no, black
women would be present before that."
that supposed to convince me? I thought. "We're more open that
you think." I protested. Patrick O'Hara is just a politician with
plans to conquer the world and he wants me a mare secretary to be
his wife so that he can play straight.
"Obama's run has come to an end and do you
want Palin to be our next president?" O'Hara snake smooth voice
tries once again.
stare into his cold grey eyes opposed from my strong hazel/blue
ones. "Hilary is running again against her." I once again protest
I'm not very good at debates but I try my best.
"Miss. Goldstein" his voice raises a higher
pitch it reminded me of the days when he was a Pennsylvania's top
lawyer he defended the underdog the unjust. He was a real lawyer
not the one that sues for accidents or side effects from
medications. It was the times maybe when he was a gentlemen true
to human society. Somewhere O'Hara lost that trueness. The only
thing that hasn't changed was his handsome features. His long
nose, deep set eyes, five o'clock shadow and perfect set of
teeth. He's what women dream about or should I say gay
"O'Hara" I replied
"You and I go way back" yeah
"What you are asking of me is wrong.
Americans do not like it when you lie and deceive. Do you
remember the politician John Edwards or the Tiger Woods Fiasco,
or what happened to that governor of New Jersey? We hold people
on a pedestal then we break them. Expressly when we find out
someone deceived us." I pitched what would be a good
O'Hara's gray eyes flamed with fury. He
didn't like my answer. His lips went tight and the beginnings of
wrinkles shown. He stared at me as though I were his enemy. His
back was straight and away from the back of his chair. I saw that
once before when he was a lawyer and he was about to lose and he
has one last secret weapon. I lead my breath. What does he have
one me? I knew then this snake has something up his sleeve, that
slip of an Ace in a card game when a con artist
"You will marry me Miss. Goldstein." And he
has something in his hand he smiles sending me shills down my
spine. "I've got something that will change your mind." He leans
back in his chair like after a lone eats its
keep my pride and hold my eyes to his. "I will
think you will. You see Miss Goldstein this document has that
retirement living your parents live in and with one phone call
they will be in Livington Retirement". Livington Retirement is a
death sentence to all senior citizens and you prayed that you
didn't go there when you are old and your mind diseased with
Alzheimer's. It's one of those assisted livings where you left in
your own excrement for months.
"You think? I could call now. With a few
words I could..."
parents are all me and my younger sister have and my parents
aren't senile. They are even into texting and blogging once a
week after their long vacations in Europe. I stared at O'Hara.
Why me? I grinned my teeth and gave a murderess
smiled and dismissed me and told me to go home and to be ready
for our date. "Oh and Roxanne ware something expansive and not
something cheep from Levittown Pennsylvania." I glared at him
slamming the door behind me.
here I sit beside him as he pronounces that he is running for
president with his opponents Hillary Clinton and Sara Palin once
again two democrats and one republican. I watch him shake hands
admirably each to his candidates. I can't help but wonder how far
this façade will play out. It was then Patrick O'Hara publically
announced that Roxanne O'Hara was for months pregnant "My
beautiful Wife" as he put it.
Nothing was beautiful in the way we made this
child. There was no love or romance. Sex was mechanical unnatural
and coldness that had me wishing he'd get it over with quickly.
He knew nothing about a women or it might be my bias maybe it
could have been our coldness to each other. It was our
unattracted feelings towards another. A Child would get his
family man portrait.
turned away from him then and now, the audience captured under
his spell and it was then I saw him his secret lover. We lock
eyes for an instant and I saw pity in his eyes thus stirring rage
in me. If he only knew who the real Patrick O'Hara was, If only
the word knew the real Patrick O'Hara.
There were days I wished I were in an abusive
marriage than a marred of lies and deception. At Least in an
abusive relationship there's no deception and a safe house.
Where's my safe house for this façade? I made a plan to teach the
child in me what a real gentle man is whether his sexually. I
vowed to me and my unborn child that he would not end up like his
loud raw of excitement after Mr. O'Hara's speech bringing me back
from my thoughts O'Hara gave a look to his lover, I pray someone
would catch that and save me. He took my hand as Palin took the
podium. Squeezing my hand tight I thought he'd drain the blood
from its tips. I wondered what I did wrong I glared at
"You think it's wise for him to be here?" I
knew this would anger him. "Don't get so cocky you should know
this is where one messes up." He let go of my hand I smiled
triumphantly. To piss him off more I winked at is secret lover.
July 4, 2012 Morning
Patrick O'Hara was caught holding hands and
kissing another man walking in to a hotel room late last night.
While his wife is at home taking care of one moth old twins how
long has this affair been going on stay tuned CNN with Anderson
Every news paper and TV news stations played
and wrote the affair of Patrick O'Hara and his poor wife. I was
not to answer the phones and to let our lawyer's handle
everything. I was to keep quite. I felt relief and fear.
"Did you do it?" O'Hara's angry voice carried
though the hall amplifying the loudness over the
I did not! I'm not stupid though I cannot say for you. I warned
you didn't I? I told you were getting cocky?
Slam of the phone
O'Hara pulled out of the Presidential race.
He says he makes no apologies next on CNN
Two Months Later -
signed the divorce papers signing my freedom, signing my life
back. Visitations O'Hara gets weekends only during school moths
summers only three months. For now he only gets
Every day I tell my boys the story of the
gentlemen. They don't understand now but someday they'll