Can you hear me Mum ?

It has been three years Mom! Three years since you gone. Believe me it was about 30 years. I don’t know from where I got the strength! I don’t know how I handled it or how I’m still handling it….

Mum would you please tell me how can I go on without you? How can I live as a normal girl? As before Mum…….

when you were ((here)) ….!

Adam, Leila and I, we all transfer our pain into a piece of paper and then cut it so we relief our anger and sadness as u told as once to do Mum! We don’t even talk to each other about you! But I can notice the look in their eyes that says “we miss you Mum?”

I can see it Mum!

Mum you just left without telling us, without a sign! Dad has a woman in his life, a wicked woman; you can’t imagine how much I hate her. I know Mum; I know that if you hear me you will tell me that each person has the positive and negative side. I know that you will try so hard to pluck the hatred from my heart! But Mum, she’s devil!! I can’t love her and I won’t. She’s trying to take Dad away from us and take him away from “you”! She’s trying so hard to damage our image in front of Dad. I hate her Mum, I really hate her~!! And I’m trying so hard and hopeless not to hate Dad!!

I’m the only one in this house who likes talking to you daily. I don’t think that there’s any work in this life can keep me away or busy from you, Mum! I feel that you can hear me, I feel that Mum!! I can hear your laugh, see your smile and feel your hug!! I really miss you Mum.

OHHH…..!!! ….. NO IT CAN’T BE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

!!!!! MUM……!!!!!!!!! MOTHER!!! Mum CANNN YOU HEEEAR ME????!!!!!!???!!!!

IT’S A MIRACLE…!!!! I SWEAR IT’S A MIRACLEEE!!!!!

IS THAT TEARS!!! IS THAT TEARS IN YOUR CHEEKS MUM…!!! OMGGG Daad, leilaaa , Adaam pleaaase COME HERE!! WHERE THE HELL ARE YOU!!!!! COMEE OVEER PLEAAASSEE!!!!! PLLEEEAAASE COOME OVVVEERRR !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

MUM CAN HEAR ME!!

MUM CAN FEEL ME!!!!

MUM…………….!!!!!!!!!!

DEAR MOTHER, THE MOST PRECIOUS PERSON IN MY LIFE!!!!!!!!

LET ME WIPE YOUR PURE TEARS! LET ME WIPE THEM MOTHER…!!!

LET ME HUG YOU MUM!!! LET ME HUG YOU AND WIPE MY TERRS IN YOUR HOSPITAL GOWN!!

I said to myself:!!

((It has been 2 years since you left the hospital and came in this small room!!! every day in these two years I’ve never shut my mouth, I ALWAYSCOMPLAIN AND SAY A LOT OF THINGS THAT I DON’T THINK IF YOU CAN HEAR ME WILL MAKE YOU FEEL HAPPY!!))

I’M SORRY MUM..!! I’M SORRY DEAR …! I’M SORRY FOR EVERYTHING.. I APOLOGIZA FOR HOW CARELESS MY DAD WAS!! I’M SORRY THAT I TREART YOU AS A DEAED PERSON!!!!!

I DON’T THINK THAT MY HEART BEATED BEFORE AS IT BEATS NOWW, I DON’T THINK THAT I HAVE EVER CRIED AS I CRY NOW!!

DOCTORS TOLD US THAT IT IS A CLINICAL DEATH, IT MEANS YOU CAN’T FEEL, HEAR OR DO ANYTHING…~ BUT MUM; I KNEW , I KNEW THAT THEY ARE WRONG!! YOU ARE STRONG AS I’VE ALWAYS KNOWN!!

PLEASE LET ME SLEEP NEXT TO YOU AND HUG YOU, LET US WAIT FOR DAD, LEILA AND ADAM, LET’S WAIT FOR THEM MUM...

EVEN IF THERE ISN’T ANY MOVEMENT, I BELIEVE THAT YOU WILL RETURN TO US!! BETTER THAN BEFORE..!!

believe me Mum there’s always gonna be hope…

there’s always gonna be hope..