Who am I? Ravyn or Luci?

My name is Luci. I am 13 years old. I have brown hair. I have brown eyes. I am quite plain. I go to school. I get teased. I come home. I write. I watch T.V. I play xbox. I sleep. This is my routine. My name is Ravyn. I am 26 years old. I have black hair. I have green eyes. I come from a broken home. I sleep and live alone. I am an assassin. I kill people for a living. I enjoy bloodshed. My identities are confused. Who am I? Who lives in this shell of a person? Someone help me, please! Someone sort out this fucking mess! But no one will listen to my cries. I tried as hard as I fucking could, but no one cares. No one notices me. I am alive. No one hears the shouts from this living person. No one understands why my blood ran down my wrista and hit the floor.