Is this what it came down to? Stuck in a never ending circle of confusion and stomach aching pain. Everywhere I turn, there are walls combined with bricks and metal, not a chance to get passed. Why can't I leave, I have gotten into this mess because of me being the person that I am. Even though they have made me what I am. I have kept my true self in a secret life so they would live in peace. But parts of that life have been breaking apart and falling, onto our circle of peace that makes us all blinded from harsh reality. I have ruined everything, without meaning to, and now I must run. The little one asked where I shall go. Can't look in her eyes when I tell the lie. Am I afraid to speak the truth for my own being, or for the protection of my family? When the family is the one attacking me…… I don't get it. They say their doing it for my own safety but yet they still hurt me by taking those pieces of of the unkowing pieces of that lie, the life I live, and using it to their advantage, what a cruel world. Of course the excuse they use is that I am too young to understand, but what they don't know is what I have seen, heard,and encountered during the years. Where will I go? Of course not far from my home, for my body forbids me to go so far. But I need time to gather my pieces once again to stay within my secret life of solitude to protect my loved ones. The ones who attacked me, but then show me the love that I need. They never believe me, and I guess they never will. I don't want them to. No one can understand you unless they have been through what you have been through, and no one will ever want to go through what I have been through, no one. All of this, because of me, keeping a secret life. I guess the truth was bound to come out.