In my eyes, it's what I see.
But deep down, its the essence of life and death that fixes the contour lines of who we are. I'm the kind of girl who just wants to be somewhere. And I don't know where that is, but its somewhere out there. Life and death. That's a fragment we all consider at one point in our life. Some more than others.
and then there's love. What do you feel when you love? Do you ever get those warm butterflies in your stomach, that you can't help but love, even though you hate how it hurts? Love is such a deep feeling. I think everyone wants it, because it's the closest thing we have to magic. Some of us tear our hearts up to find it and in the end, we have to ask ourselves, is it really worth it?
One day, maybe two or three years ago, I was coming back from the dentist. My mom was driving me, and i remember how the ground was drowned in the white fluffiness that was the snow. I remember the evergreen trees with light, powder snow on it. I remember the song that was playing on the radio. Truly, Madly, Deeply, by Savage Garden. I love that song... It was in January... And as I listened to the song, I stared out the window, looking onto a little hill, where at the bottom, was two people. A boy, and a girl. The girl had light brown hair, and the guy had jet black straightened hair. I don't think I'll ever forget that scene.. And I remember this..
*I wanna stand with you on the mountain.
I wanna bathe with you in the sea
I wanna lay like this forever
Until the sun comes down on me"
And as those lines were sung, the boy got down on his knee and was holding something out to the girl. I guessed it was a ring. And she jumped up really high, before he got up and she jumped into his arms. He had this perfect smile on his face as he twirled her around once. Just once in a circle. And they kissed as he did it. I remember thinking, I have never seen anything so beautiful in my entire life.
That was the day I saw real love. It was so..ridiculously cliche, but I think that's what it was supposed to be. And even though the boy and the girl seemed barely twenty, I knew they were in love. I remember the way the snow stuck to his one knee when he stood up and the way she jumped. I thought it was the most picture perfect moment in the world.
One day, that's going to be me. I'm going to find someone so special, that everything won't matter. I'm going to have that super cliche moment. And I'm going to live to tell it to the world. I believe in love. And that's what carries me on. xo