She woke up every morning and put on the mask of a happy smiling normal girl to hide the pain.
She walked out from behind closed doors and appeared in front of her family, her friends, and people at school to be happy full of joy.
She fake smiled, fake laughed, fake lived, yet no one seemed to notice in fact people liked the fake her better, and this is what she really wanted from the first place because she thought that no one will like her for who she really was so she decided to change in to a fake personality.
But she was dying from the inside every fake second of her life, until the day came when she collapsed and realized that she was too tired of acting and pretending to be the girl who lived happily ever after.
She decided to take her life and for once sleep peacefully and happily ever lasting.
She almost lost her life that day; she wouldn't have been here right now if god hadn't given her another chance to live.
But since that day she promised she'll never attempt suicide again although she clearly knew that the memory of herself over dosing and feeling death reaching her will always remain within her mind.
Now she's ok but people always ask her about the picture of sadness in her eyes, though she has no answer for she really doesn't know the reason behind her despaired eyes… her blue soul.
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