I Can't Put It Into Words

I can't put it into words,

You left me with nothing but a memory,

You came back though,

You know what I've done,

Did you come back to stop me?

Or did you come back to fix what you broke?

Either way I still can't put it into words,

There's hardly a memory left now,

I can only smile painfully,

My hands behind my back,

The blade runing through,

You still talk like you used to,

That consistant blabbering of yours,

It keeps the pain away,

Of whats happening behind my back,

The blade putting a smile on my wrists,

So I can remember to smile when I see you,

I can't put it into words,

There's nothing left,

You have to understand about who I am,

I don't see you and so I will forget who you are,

There's barely a memory of you left,

I make a smile to hopefully remember,

When you kept talking,

I can't have it anymore,

I can't have you,

What's behind my back will always be in reach,

My knuckles are so bloody,

I've let my wrists heal for now,

I don't remember you,

There's so much pain,

You're back though,

I can't put it into words.

(I mean that I want you back)