This is who I am.....

Why do I keep fighting?

Why don’t I just give in?

Why don’t I let it take me?

Why don’t I let it consume me?

I can’t do it my friends,

Not again,

Not after what happened to him,

I want to let it take me,

Let it consume me,

Let it take away the pain,

I can’t do it to them,

Not again,

Not yet,

I see the days after,

Their faces,

After what happened to him,

I can’t just leave,

Leave the hole of where I used to be,

If I let it take me,

Let it consume me,

I won’t care,

I’ll stop caring,

I want to jump,

I want to stop the pain,

I am not strong,

I am weak,

This is who I am,

I am Gaijin….