Show Me How To Love

I'm standing here in this wide open field with a million stars looking down on me the night breeze blows cold against me face freezing my tears before they have a chance to fall with the moon glowing so strong a thousand thoughts knock me to my knees my body is nomb from the pain as I realize there may be nothing else I can do I fall backwards onto the soft grass for all my strength is gone I just lay there staring at the stars looking for I don't know what an anwser or a sign perhaps for someone or something to tell me what I am to do cause I honestly don't know am I to lay here and die, to rid this world of all my hurtful words though I know my soul is not evil sometimes my actions say otherwise and though I know my heart only wants the best for her I continualy push her further and further away all I want is to love her all I want is for her to love me I just wish I knew how to do that, and just that