ok.. i dont know what to do..
she's suffering from depression and i think shes dragging me drown that hell hole too..
i tried so hard..
i wrote her a book to help her build her life and comfident..
she told me she was gonna be 100% committed to this project
i belive her.. she promise me

i tried so hard, so much effort.
she knows writting means so much to me, and i take it so serious.
but she just throw it back right in my face two days after that...
she said it helped but goes i wasnt being a good enough friend to her and she didnt need my help anymore.
(just because i hang around my superstar)
she told my superstar i wasnt gonna be there for him in the end... that i wasnt gonna be a good enough friend to him as well

for her i hide all my troubles to help her..
i left my trouble to turn worst, to be there for her..
she never once thought about how i would feel
she told me when i cried to her
"this is not about you, its about me"
i'll never cry in front of her ever again...

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do i keep on trying or give up??
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.i tried so hard.