Black Contract Nightshade's Book of Sorrows

I lay me down on a bed of ashes and thought.
I thought long and hard, hard and long.
The ashes touching my white skin,
Making my pure white skin, black.
Why do I have such white skin?
When my days are black?
Why do I smile a lot?
When I am really frowning?
You blame me for everything.
Even if it’s not my fault.
You blame everything on me.
Each moment of every day and night,
You drag me down further and further.
Into a black abyss.
I hate you,
But I forgive you.
I hate you,
But I still love you.
Now that you are gone,
I cannot tell you,
In front of your face.
How much you mean to me.
So now, when no one is there.
I fall down on my bed of ashes,
And weep.

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Time is running out

I am falling as time moves

Time is running out

No longer will it be

A bright sunny summer

Forever, winter and darkness

The damage is already done

There is no going back

Time is running out

I am falling as time moves

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Slowly, ever so slowly

I decade into darkness

I'm losing the good memories

I am losing your touch

I am losing your voice

I am losing you.

I feel so cold and alone without you

I never wanted you to leave

I wake up every morning to see you are gone

You have slipped away from my life

Just to see you, hear you, feel you

One more time

Would make my day

I am losing you bit by bit

Help me keep you in my memory

Forever

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