I’m so confused.
I’m trapped inside myself,
Imprisoned by this feeling,
This feeling of being numb.
Being numb to the light,
Being numb to love and pain.
I don’t know when to cry or laugh like I used to.
I just walk through life like a shadow.
I’m suffocating,
Waiting for it to end,
But it never does.
So many things have gone wrong,
And I can’t seem to do the right things to fix them.
People have turned and left me,
And my calls for them are growing weaker and weaker.
No one hears my pleas for help.
I don’t know what’s going on,
I don’t know who’s left to save me,
Before I become nothing at all.
Still, I wait,
While I become more and more numb.
I am foolish to think there is anyone that still cares about me,
That still wants to go out of their way to help back up on my feet,
And show me how to feel again.
I am not important enough for them to try and find me in the midst of this darkness.
I bang against these cold bars with my freezing hands,
Crying out to be set free.
If I had a heart,
It would be broken.
I am so numb,
I can’t tell if my calls are being heard,
Or they are just my thoughts,
Unspoken and begging to be let go.
Can I break free alone,
As numb as I am?
Or will someone help me?
I can’t escape from this helpless state,
Feeling so numb and alone.
Walls are closing in around me,
And my efforts are useless and wasted.
I’ve given up.
I will let the darkness take over,
Because it is no use trying to defeat it alone.
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