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BARRED DOOR

Poem By: Azmat Shah
Poetry


Well the truth is that even I do not fully understand this one. I was in a despoindent state of mind when i wrote this. Would you guys believe that i did this in the middle of the night with my eyes half closed. I just put pen to paper and this poem just wrote itself.
It expresses all my angst and doubts about morality and relegion. But even I am surprised to see certain underones in this poem that i was not aware of. I am still shocked that some one can write something this long without even thinking about it. Believe me this is the first time this has happened to me. I was going through a writers block before this one and out of the blue this poem happened and now the floodgates have well and truly opened LOL.
P.S I think writing has just become my curse, now I know how Emily Diockenson felt LOL. View table of contents...

 

Submitted: Aug 25, 2008    Reads: 79    Comments: 8    Likes: 5   


A fine line lies between two states,

One of joy and the next of rage,

And fear is but a middle man,

who stands between these different lands.

Sometimes deep love can merge with hate,

some sacred truths one cant contemplate,

for every man who questions fate,

there is a fool whose lust wont sate.

For often sacrilidge is truth,

unspoken, hidden, misconstrued,

Was not the devila creation of God,

Who only let him stew and rot.

Is not this life a game of chess,

between two foes who often met,

upon the sands of time they play,

there is no black or white just grey.

For every truth conceals a lie,

for every man who lives two die,

for every push there is a pull,

for every ten there is a null.

And absolute power is a drugging wine,

that immortals drink while they feast and dine,

Its sensous coils has them ensnared,

of this my friend one must despair.

Perhaps this maze has no just end,

And all these paths lead unto themselves,

Maybe there is no universal truth,

just stone etched facts one can't undo.

For some a sin is virtue still,

For others virtue is a sin,

For so many death is but a curse,

but for a few it will but nurse.

We are told that deeds should not expect rewards,

But every man is not a God,

And is not worship a form of bribe,

just for this gift of mortal life.

So even God expects returns,

Our servitude is what he earns,

And is this not a form of greed,

Between these lines when will you read.

When will we call a spade a spade,

There is no love there is no hate,

You will condemn me for my views,

These storms of doubt will always brew.

But for this momentItake no sides,

I neither face darkness nor the light,

And what I see is just one thing,

A barred door I can not unhinge.


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Susan
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... and this with your eyes half closed ? I would be interested to hear what YOU think it means.

Susan

Posted: Aug 25, 2008

Author Comment:

No babe you dont get to cheat that way LOL. You guys have to tell me what it means first before i venture my own opinion:)

SPELLBINDING! MINDBLOWING! I will not analyze this poem because the topic is too close to my heart. I will also not mention the typos here because you wrote it in the middle of night. I do agree that some of the best verses come to us when we are in a semi-awake state. Perhaps because that's when our guards are down? We can acknowledge the truth better then.

I know exactly what you felt when you wrote this. My own conclusion was to say goodbye to religion and to welcome spirituality - my belief now is something like Sufiism, although I really dislike giving a label to what I believe.

In my opinion, you are the best poet on this site.

Posted: Aug 25, 2008

Author Comment:

Yeah i know about the typo's. No matter how hard i try they always creep back in. You know i agree with you, modern relegion does not seem to agree with me. It is too hypocritrical sometimes. Not that i denounce relegion, i have deep beliefs, that is perhaps why i try to understand my faith so much. I believe in God and all that relegion entails but i canot just believe in everything especially not what the mullahs and preachers harp on about.
By the way thanx for giving my ego such a boost LOL.

For every truth conceals a lie,

for every man who lives two die,

for every push there is a pull,


Very heartfelt and honest...I am also angered by the serial bomb blasts in india killing so many innocent people on roads, market places, cinema halls and even HOSPITALS all the name of the religion....

GOD is watching everything...i won't say HE is not there...HE is very much there and would punish the monsters....yes monsters in this life for all to see...and all this in the name of religion....just like in the movie "Khamosh Paani"....

GREAT POEM...i Second Urja that "U R THE BEST"....
WELCOME BACK....

Posted: Aug 25, 2008

Author Comment:

Hello,
I know what you mean Pratibha. I know how you feel and i wholeheartedly support your sentiments. These people indeed lose all sense of humanity. I come from a country where this is a everyday problem and i can tell you that often the people who carry out these attacks are young men and boys who are disallusioned with life and poverty. I know it is not an excuse but these people are actually ignorant of the realities of relegion which in my opinion teaches understanding and love.
I think to destroy this menace we must get to the root of this problem, which is actually the politicians and relegious clerics. All of us need to single out these people who live in plush houses and have fancy cars and we need to deal with them first. They are worse than monsters. They feed on the ignorance of these young people and dehumanise them by contorting relegion.
Often instead of dealing with the roots of the problem we single out the weed. No matter how many bombers we neutralize we will never get anywhere without dealing with the cause.

Hello Azmat, many thoughts here.
I can see how deep your mind was traveling that night.
I enjoyed reading this
~katie

Posted: Aug 26, 2008

Author Comment:

Thankyou so much. I am so glad you liked it.

Hello Azmat,

I had come back again to comment after reading your reply to Urja and had many things that I wanted to say. However, first, I read your reply to Pratibha and see that you have already realized that which I was going to share.

It seems to me that all the major religions share the same basic tenets but it is people who wish to use these Faiths/Religions to gain their own ends, usually power and influence, who manipulate both the Belief and the Believers to their own wicked advantage.

Living in a country where there is enshrined and observed (but the powers of darkness are trying to change this, with some success)separation of the Powers of Church and State, it is easy (so far) for me to live as I see fit.

As with Urja, I have chosen the Middle Way (no disrespect intended to Buddhists)of withdrawing from organized religion but doing my best to live my life by the tenets of the Christian Faith.

Believe me, there are the equivalent of the Mullahs and Preachers in all the Christian Denominations, however, education and a reasonable standard of living in Western countries holds them at bay.

There is a third element to the equation, though, I think. So many people seem unable to live their lives without set guidelines designated by others. There seems to be an inate need to hand over control to others. This goes beyond lack of education and poverty, as witness the Cults where both wealthy and educated people predominate.

I am afraid that I don't have answers only questions but feel that I can be true to myself by living my life as I see fit and respecting others as I would wish to be respected.

The people on Booksie, educated for the most part, for so many are writing in English as a second language, show this respect daily. Where else would you find people from different countries and Faiths (often at war with each other in one way or another)discussing all sorts of issues and trying to understand each others point of view, with patience and courtesy.It gives me real hope for the future, it can be done!

Sorry for the rant. I have been inspired by the young thinkers on "Dannika's" Booksie Page who made me feel ashamed of my shallowness at their age,regarding Faith.

Good Luck with your new life of which I am sure you will make every success. How could it be otherwise ?

Kindest regards,
Susan

Posted: Aug 26, 2008

Author Comment:

I am truly humbled by your wonderful comment. I agree whole heartedly with your keen observations. You are absolutely right, people do tend to give away control perhaps from a misguided sense of trying to fit in or to become part of a crowd. Not every one can go it alone, it takes real courage to stand up against the hypocracy that is so prevalent in all spheres of society not just relegion. I just hope and pray for the day when we will rise above our petty differences and political views and embrace each other as true equals for we are all one, whether we like it or not.

Some days, I just don't know how to reply to you. This is such a plethora of wise thoughts.

Posted: Aug 26, 2008

Author Comment:

Thanx i think LOL. Hey you will have to do better than that, come on hun i am counting on your wise insight.

You had a lot in your mind that night, thats for sure. These are some pretty deep sentiments shared....I loved it. Think its my favourite poem so far.

Posted: Aug 27, 2008

Author Comment:

Thank you so much hun. You know i meant what i said in the intro, i was half asleep when i wrote this, i only realized what i had written when i read it the next morning. Pretty wierd huh LOL.

Hmmm... Azmat, I couldnt disagree at large... there is inherent rage in the mind that has seen better, the mockery of social care and repair instills a rusted rod in the poet's spine.

But always know, it is not the rage that will save us, nor the dilema, nor the balance of acts.

It is only the realization of the fickle and the move towards the inner peace that will save us in the end, every day and in every way.

Keep writing Azmat... you have a long way to go and a lot to deliver back. All the best.

peace sells but who is buying?

Posted: Aug 27, 2008

Author Comment:

Thank you. I just love your insightful comments. I guess that rage is the paramount emotion that comes out in this one, but than all my poetry is instinctive. I havent studied it very deeply niether do i have a rigid grasp of the technical fundementals of the genre. Therefore i do realize that most of my work is pretty raw. But you know every time i write a new one and compare it to the many other poems that i read on Booksie i feel a sense of pride. I also feel that there is hope, i know i have a long way to go but with every single poem that i write i feel like i take a step in the right direction. Please continue reading my work and commenting, it is comments by discerning critics like you that help me hone my skills.
P.S by the way what did you mean by "You have a lot to deliver back"



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