One day (i can be happy)

What happens when you cannot feel anything anymore?

What does it mean not to care?

Who does that make me?

How can I tell myself to be happy if my heart is broken?

How can I pretend to be happy if my body is weak?

I will try,

Being happy is what I want

I just don’t know how to do it anymore

I don’t know where to start

To much pain and anger

To much fighting

 All I see pain

I need to be helped

I need them to stop

I need to be happy

I want to be

I am tired of trying and failing

I am tired of having to feel this way everyday

I am tired of being tired.