Shades of black and blue

I'm sorry.
What could  I have done.
When I fell before you.
When I feared you.
I was only dead weight.
Every strike
Every word withered me.
I'm sorry.

What did I do to deserve the endless beatings.
They burned me.
Every black and blue mark struck to the skin told me you didn't love me
Am I such a killer.
Don't blame me.

Why don't you see that I'm sorry but you wont for give me.
I'm sorry
All I wanted was a friend.

But I was scared.

I always shivered in my ice cold bed

Of when you would come in. 

To hurt me.

When it struck me I could fell the slicing pain.

To my back.

All I wanted was a friend.

A friend I'm never going to get. 

And that's all I see.