"Bleeding Hearts"

My hearts bleeds,
It plants death’s seeds,
Upon the mentioning of your name,
It brings my heart so much pain…

I feel pathetic,
Shameful and magnetic,
To pity all and doubt,
And watch you walk about…

You are out going and loving,
I am nervous and ignoring,
The voice that tells me what to say,
And that voice just won’t go away…

I won’t impress you,
I’ll do what I do,
You are happy when you see him,
But only smile at me so thin…

I am just there,
Not bright like a flare,
Just being a friend,
But that’s not how I want it to end…