"Mending Hearts"

I've come to realize that I cannot waste my time on love. There was a feeling inside of me lately that told me something wasn't right. Then I realized it. I was always the second "hello", the second in line, the second partner against others. And my feelings seemed to drop down to an almost depressed feeling.

And something else seemed to catch my eye. My schedule. It's jam packed and barely any time for any love related conditions. My friend Brody and I talked about this and he said he went through the same thing. He's in college now, and damn him if he doesn't do something awesome with his bass someday! He told me to stick with school and bass, because love isn't as important as those at my current age.

I now realize that friendship seems to be the only thing that can keep a bond together. I can't pay attention to love unless I can recieve it in return. I don't think I need it now. I honestly think that I don't.

So yes, I am now questioning myself about high school relationships. They only last for some weeks, right? And I doubt half of them are even serious. I don't want to be neither now. I just want to go through my years at my school without having to worry about love if at all possible. It's not worth it.