Choking On My Approval

I’ve been waiting my whole life for a love like this,

but all I do is long for your presence and silently beg for your time.

In the beginning I was so lenient with everything because I was so afraid to lose you,

and now all I do is choke on my approval because I feel like you’re slipping away.

Not actually of course,

it’s just the longing that makes it feel this way.

I wish I could tell you how I’m feeling,

that would make me someone who goes back on my word.

I just wanted you to be happy.

And I didn’t want to be another one of those nagging girlfriends.

But in a way I wish I were because then you’d see just how much I care,

just how much I miss you,

and wish you were here.

Deep down inside I hope that you start to hear my silent pleas of your company,

begin to see the tears I’ve been crying all along when you weren’t around,

and realise that all I have wanted this whole time was you,

you and your happiness.