Timid Days Ahead

I am from a joyful past and a timid future where I am frightened to go, A void of uncertainty. I am from a loving family who supports my every wish, who hurts when I hurt and feels what I feel. I am from nights out with friends that turn into a marker frenzy and a night of hysterical laughing. I am from a place where no one knows my heart where most don't take the time to know someone- only a few, my best friends. I am from a classroom where I blush with every presentation with butterflies in my stomach as I walk up to the stage as i try to focus so I don't run away. I am from a best friend who I have trusted since day one Where we played on the monkey bars and invented some new games Where we grew into high school kids still playing tag. I am from the most unbearable heartache ever to experience throughout a lifetime, not having my best friend with every task I do. I will no longer hear her ticking sound as she breathes when she sleeps, or the high pitch giggle I long to hear. The sister who comforted me or brought me to reality. The adventurous person,who laughed when I was scared. Who looked danger in the eye and felt no fear. Who found fun with every event in life. She fickled with her hair for hours, though it looked fine. We were the team who pranked people when they slept. I am from emotions that cannot be expressed in writing I think the world of my best friend and always will. I am from a life that will never be the same.