Pain is…. loosing your puppy you so loved
When you were very young
You couldn't even face going to school
After you hearing the vet over the phone say
"sorry my dear she didn't make it,
we have a little graveyard at the surgery
Shall I have her buried for you?"
"Please do, I will bring flowers!" she answered.
Pain is… as a teenager finding out the truth
That in actual fact you were adopted
Was it necessary to leave it till now
She asked herself over and over again
It was very hard to comprehend
Yet the out come turned into the positive
Realising that the parents who raised her
Were the only she knew and always would love.
Pain is… when you go into labour
Labour pains increasing with every contraction
When contraction reaches its peak
The clock stops it doesn't seem tick
Then comes the push, pant push part
So scared now, yet you know its' all the way now
Then amazingly you hear that first cry
Your baby boy a miracle, a joy.
Pain is… when your 2nd child is born
So perfectly formed, 10 fingers and 10 toes
A face so angelic a tiny little nose
In your arms you lovingly hold her
For the very first yet very last time
Her little face turns blue she breathes her final breath
As angels take her to heaven above
All left now the tears that wet your face.
Pain is… when your baby boy disappears
Don't know where his gone
The you learn of the medicine man
Way up in the hills who needs to brew
Frantic, beside yourself you on the search
Please Dearest Lord hear my cry
Let no harm to this innocent child of mine come
Thank you Father for hearing my call.
Pain is… loosing your father
The one you always depended on
He who showed you the right from wrong
Your Santa Clause and tooth mouse
Who taught you to drive
Your hero and friend
Never forgetting your birthday
The best grand pappa ever
Pain is… fighting in that deep Atlantic ocean
All four my young in trouble
As the current takes them deeper and deeper
Many stand and watch my fight against this hell
Mommy will we all drown today asks my daughter
If ever I prayed I prayed that day
All prayers answered from above
We all got safely back to shore.
Pain is… when a marriage for better or worse
Comes to a sudden halt
The love of your life, your first love
Loves you no more
He says it is greener on the other side
No longer by my side will he abide
And so suffer the children even more
No words can comfort their broken hearts.
Pain is… loosing your mother
Your best friend and story teller
Who catches you when you fall
Giving just the very best
Teaching you to live in truth
The best babysitter ever
A love ending at never
Mom I will always miss and love you.
Pain is… loosing a granddaughter
To a killer disease menengitus
Only 13 months old this little sunflower
Like a thief in the night
The angels came to take her away
Her daddy and mommy so broken
All tattered and torn
Having to wear this crown of thorn.
Pain is… a marriage 2nd time around
Till death do us part it is supposed to be
Used and abused you so I am told
"I only needed you to grow up my 4 young
You did a pretty good job," says he
Thank you Mam you services needed no more
Daggers into my heart one more time
Inside just an empty space very hard to face
Pain is… waking up from an operation
Doctor at your beside
Worried look on his face as he says
"you will be back in surgery tomorrow
cancer is the name here, sorry my dear."
But next to me the Girl who took me into her heart
Showed me a new and different world out there
Not knowing what destiny had in store for us.
Pain is… when you pushed aside by those
By those you love with your heart and soul
Those you would give your life for
Your 3 boy children
Acceptance of a new life and world for me
Simply nil on a contract
Judged, convicted and sentenced
Where to from here?
Pain is… the worst pain ever
Being parted from the one you love
Body, heart and soul
The one who knows you best
Who brings comfort in stormy skies
For life is just a moment in time
Surely to goodness happiness is allowed to all
Why me Lord, why? This is pain!