When you cry your tears of sorrow for me,
I will be listening as they fall upon your face.
And when you cry out for me in the night,
I will cry too because I miss your embrace.
The nights will seem longer and the days
will seem not quiet long enough.
I will be missing you dearly, though
Although saying it isn’t enough.
Now I see you’ve fallen asleep from the pain.
I stroke your face knowing you wont feel me.
I have left you all alone in this world.
All because I thought I wanted to be free.
You didn’t know it, but I was looking on
as you discovered my lifeless body that day.
I wanted to take it back, what I’d done,
but death told me I just couldn’t stay.
You fell to the floor grabbing at my face.
You tried to breath your life into me.
You screamed out for help, but it was too late.
I had already sealed my destiny, unfortunately.
People told you I was unhappy to begin with.
They told you I was depressed and on drugs.
What no one told you was how much I loved you
And how I treasured every kiss, every hug.
I am forced to watch you grow every day.
I can’t leave your side and move on as I should.
I have to stay and protect you from harm
Just as any loving and good father would.