My breaths shorten as I find what I so long ago lost
The boundaries set have been completely crossed
No Time to think, only time to bleed,
To drain my self of these evils
Is all I need.
Shiny metal reflecting the light
As my mind fades away into the dead of the night
Wounds hidden underneath pretty clothes
Secrets kept hidden so that nobody knows
We all have reputations to uphold,
So what am I to do but turn my heart cold?
Necessary crimes to keep other pains away,
I hack at myself to keep thoughts at bay.
I can't distribute the blame among my foes
Or people of the past
Because none of them are aware
Of what goes on when the doors are closed.
Here I lie, curled on the floor
I can faintly hear people pounding on the door.
As the blood drips red down my wrist,
I let my consciousness slip into the dark bliss.
But even now, as my life starts to fade
I'm dragged through memories, a thousand times replayed.
The presence of all those who disappeared
And the ones that will still remain here,
A force stroner than fire itself,
Making me do what I most fear,
I cannot go, I cannot die.
Not all of my dues have yet been paid.
Things that time could never heal
Emotions I cannot feel
The numbness and pain always become one
And in this monster
I am undone.
I have no time to cry and no time to go away
Only time to bleed,