Why Can't You Just See?

You leave without saying goodbye

No I love you

No care that it hurts me to see you go

You drive off

To the thing that you care for more than ever

Maybe even more than me

You spend time without your family

Every night with drunk people

I listen to the yelling

All the complaining

About you not being here

I fight off the words

Try not to talk back

They keep coming

They still hurt

I do nothing to deserve it

I stand there

Dealing with everything you throw

And still I throw the smile

Right back at you

I’m sure you don’t see through

The fakeness that is so clear

But not clear enough for you to see

I thought you would see your daughter

The pain, the hurt that you cause

I think my friends see better

I wish that you could change

Throw the addictions out the window

I try to talk

But its like my lips are moving

But only silent words is what you hear

Unlike your words

That are so crystal clear

And sometimes just clean daggers

That come out dirty with my pain

So why can’t you just see

You really do hurt me

Why can’t you just see

I’m reaching out every day.

Please just understand

I love you always

But the things you do

I hate so much

Why can’t you just see

What you’ve made me to be.