you never even wanted me

The sheets weigh heavy with guilt and regret,

they reek very strongly of bitter sweet sweat.

The emptiness I feel, quickly filled with fears,

my through is thick, my chin drips tears.

Alone in bed with you in my head,

knowing I cant have you...

makes me wish I didn't want to.

I applaud your acting, your tone of voice,

the look in your eyes.

You told me you loved me,

missed me, wanted me.

Said the right things to speed up my breathing

and caught me, had me,

into a trap I walked into knowingly,

didn't want to leave, never wanted to,

but you gave me the key, you pushed me.

Now the truth is clear,

you never even wanted me.