An Effort / Darklady

I sit here meditating about how miserable my life is

Lamenting about what I lost,

Crying when I think about the old-time...

Weeping for what I was,

Sobbing for what I used to have,

Sighing for lost friends ....

Forfeited in my pain I forgot to praise for what I have here and now...

Smile when the sun shines for me

Feel happy for my remaining true friends

Cheer up when someone tells me: you can do it!

So lost in my grief I became blind..

I can only witness darkness, feel pain, cry endlessly

I wish what I cannot possess anymore

I long for what wasn't meant to be...

It's time to wake up,

It's Christmas!!

Time to love, time to give

Time to believe in a new tomorrow

Time for new dreams

Time to value what's worth it!!

So on this Christmas I'm grateful

For the new friends, for the love I have

For a moment I will smile

'Cause I am loved and respected

For a moment I will close my eyes

Think only about the little things in my life...

A good comment about me,

A good laugh with a friend,

I will keep in my heart all the sweet words I have been told

I will keep crying and suffering

But today, is time to bottle all the little good things in my life....

Today I cried but now I will smile

'Cause it's Christmas time!!