All I want?
All I want is to know I'm not alone.
that I'm safe.
that you won't hurt me anymore
It's all lies.
You're going to hurt me.
You're going to put me down.
You're going to scream at me.
You're going to keep walking and out of my life.
You're always going to keep me in second place next to the first place of alcohol.
For once, I just want to beat alcohol in this race for your tender loving care.
The alcohol will always win
I'm always going to be second, hell, i'll be third.
Cause I forgot, it goes like this.
alcohol, boyfriend, daughter.
alcohol, boyfriend, daughter
alcohol, boyfriend daughter.
I just want to wake up from this nightmare!
I pinch myself 1000 times a day.
It doesn't go away.
I blink, and blink, and blink.
It doesn't go away.
MAKE IT GO AWAY!!!
This pain,
it never goes away.
As soon as I pick up the pieces all over again...
you smack them out of my hand,
and back onto the ground, shattered.
Just like my heart.
I'm done fighting to be your first priority.
I'm done trying
I'm done failing.
I'm done with this cycle.
alcohol, boyfriend, daughter
alcohol, boyfreind, daughter.
alcohol is going to kill you.
boyfriend is just as bad, and abusive.
daughter, well she's breaking.
You're blinded,
by alcohol,
by your 'boyfriend'
you try to be there.
but you're never there, you never have been.
I've always been alone.
Alcohol is... the number one killer in my family.
Alcohol is...just used.
Alcohol is...your excuse for forgetting.
Alcohol is in every nightmare.
This is your daughter.
This is the one who's tried to help you.
This daughter has watched herfmaily slip through her fingers one by one.
This daughter can't do this alone.
this daughter needs you.
This daughter just wants her mother and father.
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