I sit here 5 days a week.
The same thing runs through my head.
"Why do I feel safer here, then anywhere else?"
Where I can see my bestfriend.
Oh how I wish I could board next year,
I'd be with my best friend all year.
I'd be away from this,
I'd be away from the accusations.
Away from the yelling, the blaming.
Oh, she's the teenager. Let's blame her.
She's everything but perfect, she did it.
She is insecure, let's make it worse for her, let's call her names.
She's smart, let's tell her she's stupid every day.
She's hurting emotionally and physically, let's bring her down emotionally some more.
She's tired, let's make her the work horse of the family.
The days like these,
I just want to scream,
let out all of my frustration,
cry, cry on a shoulder, or even a pillow.
I'd rather be anywhere, but here.
But I can't leave.
I love these people,
But I can't stand them.
I can't stand what they say to me,
I can't stand the constant yelling at me.
I can't stand the helpless feeling I live with.
You really wonder why I want to be 18?
It's pretty obvious.
You never listen to a word I say,
I'm ALWAYS wrong,
When I am right, you say I lied to you.
I can never win,
oh the joys of being a teenager.
You want me to be going out,
going to party,
get in trouble,
have a social life.
That's not me.
I like staying in or going outside to read or write.
I enjoy my solitude, I don't like being social.
I just want you to realise, I am ME.
One day you'll realise.
Realise that you caused my pain.
Hopefully it won't be to late.
I told you how I was feeling,
you didn't listen.
Maybe one day I won't be crying in the dead of night.
Maybe one day I'll just walk away.
Maybe one day you'll accept me.
Today, I'll be me, regardless what you want.
Today, I'll stay strong, i won't cry.
Today, I will help you, no matter what.
Today, I will deal with the hardships.
Today, I will live another day.
Today, I'll be thankful for what I have.
Today, I'll be grateful for what I can do.
Today, I'll dream.