But I'm Not

I’m nothing like them

Tall

Thin

Pretty

Athletic

I’m nothing but

Short

Fat

Ugly

Clumsy

I wish I was like them

Smart

Happy

But I’m not

I hate the way I look

I hate the way I speak

I hate the way I can’t do anything right

I hate me

One day

I wish I could look in the mirror

Without bursting into tears

One day

I wish I could actually smile at my reflection

I don’t want to be like this

Pathetic

Hopeless

Sad

I want to be

Strong

Hopeful

Happy

This feeling hurts

A lot

I can’t stop thinking like this

It’s hard

I want to run away from

The pain

But I can’t

I have to pretend

To be

fine

Healthy

Happy

But I’m not.