Painfull Memories

Painfull memories
Are what lies inside of me.

I remember everything,
Even things, I wish I didn't see.

I see the memories daily,
Re wind inside my mind.
No way to pause them,
Forced to watch.

I try to close my eyes,
I try to lie, I try to do anything,
To ease my mind.

Painful memories
Of my life, will never go away.

Painful memories,
Are what others don't see.

They don't see the things done,
Or words said to me.

They don't understand,
And I hate when they pretend.

They try to take my hand,
And I start to cry again.

I remember all the pain,
That iv felt.
All the beatings that were delt.
The bruises left behind,
The cuts that bleed,
The scars that faded.
I remember my screams,
Load and in pain,
I remember begging,
Pleading, for God to intervene.

I remember the Tears that where shead,
The blows to the head.

I remember wishing every night,
To be dead.

But god had other plans instead.

I remember all the words you said,
Every word that cut me,
That made me cry.
They stung like salt in a cut.

Painfull memories.

Are like knives
Slowly, carefully slicing me,
Leaving tiny scars , blood trickling down my body.

Painfull memories.

Scars that never go away,
They cover my body,
And only seen by me.

My hearts covered to,
But no one knew,
It was stabbed by a man,
Who is un known by you.

Painful memories.