Just Scaring Myself

I think he is here

But I don’t know

I am so scared

But it doesn’t show

My heart is throbbing

Everything we’ve shared

He wants to die but I cant let him

My chances to stop him are just to slim

I think he’s leaving this place tonight

Or even yesterday, if im right.

Derek, boo I need you

But its not the same

Please remember

Before you go

Call my number

And talk to me slow

“yes the baby will be fine

I’m sorry to waste your time

Pretend this never happened to you

So we can live happily, you and me, boo.”

Silence approaches

And tears flood

I start to cry

And there’s blood

My boyfriend is gone

And its my fault

So here’s my song

With a pinch of salt

Im going to cry

Baby might die

But what would it matter

I’m sure I’m just scaring myself.