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Truly, longest poem on booksie.

Poetry By: Emily Johnson
Poetry


Without chapters, so its not a book!


Submitted:Jan 10, 2012    Reads: 7    Comments: 1    Likes: 2   


Drifting further into the darkness, my heart is sinking.
My school years coming closer to an end, but now repeating.
The air I breathe is losing it's life, along with my laughter.
And here I am,
Here I am.
The world is consuming my soul, ripping at my heart.
Who am I even?
The world continues on,forgetting the past. And here I am,
Alone.
PeacefullyI watched my dear niece sleep,
Whom has no idea of what lies ahead.
I hold hercloser and begin to cry,
And there I was,
Falling.
I am lowering myself down, drowning myself in my sleep,
Where is the end I am seeking?
I see all my classes for the next semester,
And here I sit,
Crying.
Where time slows to a stop, I shiver and quake;
Because it is here, the end, officially.
Nothing I can do could help.
And next year I will be,
Here, once again.
My final request, is but only this.
Be sure to let my sweetheart, my boo know,
I love him.
And here I am,
Closing my eyes.
And here I am,
Saying goodbyes.
ANDTHEREIWAS...
only feel…alone. I am lost at heart. Wherever the truth lies, I will find Hell. It seems to me that all the time I glance up at the clouds, and sigh because I know that soon nothing will matter anymore. I am ugly, alone and with no peace is there passion or love, sifting sand down across my right hand and I pray to myself and remember I don't believe in god…so I stand up and walk away from the problem I'm in and seize the day by slipping away and I fall into the deep dark hole of my life and open my eyes to the day too bright and find myself chained up in a room so dark and no light, no food all I got is fright but I wont give in wont give up 'cause I'm strong enough to where I can see me ripping that chain holding me down the shackles break and I am ready, my soul to take
Can you see me? Up in the air flying like a bird and in all my despair
I bleed my pain away in tears forgetting all my fears, preparing for war preparing for more now I am a soldier I know I told you
Fade off and be gone because this song
Is nothing. Not to you and surely everything to me but who cares
It's my heart that tears
And screams and shouts
My soul and love both want out
But its not me
Giving my all I'll let it all go
Just hope I don't fall
So
Next time you feel alone listen to me listen to my song hear my voice
Rejoice to the noise and be strong
It's not wrong to do what's right
So listen…
I'm right here honey-
Speak to me….
When all you care about is not being alone, who will listen to you? You'll be alone and there will be no one to confront, no one to care about no one's shoulder to cry on. You'll feel like the ones you wish you could care for are slipping from your fingertips like the wind. Who can you turn to? Your friends aren't enough to keep you feeling loved the way you wish you were. The one thing you have left is the shattered remains of your heart. But when you're on your knees crying, your true prince will come over to you, and cry with you. I look into his deep eyes and drift off and away,

wishing his lips were touching mine,

and his hands caressing my body softly,

my hands begining to run through his touseled hair,

him holding me close and strong now,

he grabs my hand and kisses it,

says je t'aime for me in french

and

his blueish, silver eyes peer into mine,

and i see into his soul.

he loves me.

thereof, i am touching his hand when,

i am being grabbed, and beat, and pulled down,

then dragged away as he stands there, his hand

extends

out to me in a desperate way,

but he doesn't budge.

i drift off way towards the dark, and see light. i am blinded, and

in this light,

i see no one. i am alone in this white room and no one is here. i have been alone all along.

the bell rung and i am not moving. time for lunch, and yet

all i see is my hands,

my ugly hands,

and i press my right hand on my lips,

i notice the pain has returned.

i kiss my hand

and stand up, then walk off.

In every aspect of life, I still can dream.

In a dream, you find your own reality,

and as I dream to love,

and love to dream.

not me love,

love me not.

love me for the life you have.

hate me,

or dont meet me.

but in this day,

i will dream.

and escape reality,

and love life, even in the hardest times.

<3 I love you

You is killing me
Breaking my heart
Ripping me apart
You gave me images
And memories
I can't forget
All I do is regret
Loving you and
Kissing you
Why is it everything
Is all about you
You, you, you,
You, you, and
You
I cant get over it
What kind of game
are you playing?
Why is you torturing me
I been good why don't you
Believe in me?
I am always on the move
Making my way to
A better life, to be
A wife of a man
Who respects and
Reflects the quality of--…
You.
I think I'd rather die alone.
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I am single. Alone. I have been loved

enough I suppose

too much I propose

Where is my "Pricnce charming"?

My boo, my yearning?

I aspire for more, nevertheless.

I dream to be not just second guess.

I love him, and anyone who will love me.

I can love you if you set me free.

Kiss me with your words,

Make love to me with your voice.

I can breathe you in,

If you let me in.

don't hate me for who i am
you just have to fucking understand that i am
alone on my own so leave me be and i'll keep myself
under control with the rest of the world all i need is a chance
so let me go i'm big enough and stronger than you so let me go
just drop it, leave.
who i am is myself and i am you with you and
my heart can't believe it but i can just see it...
let me go fall away to
drop off the face of the world in a
minute of pain and suffer,
then find myself inside a dark dream, my simple fantasy where all
is not lost until i open my eyes and i begin to cry because
everything is gone.
who i am is myself and i am you with you and
my heart can't believe it but i can just see it...
come a little bit closer and just maybe i'll stop the pain
the tears, the blood, the screams and everybody just smiles
and passes on by
you know i can't fake it
who i am is myself and i am you with you and
my heart cannot take it
my heart

my heart…..

I ride my bike through the town real fast
The way it roars is bad-ass
Like what like what
"BRRRRRING, BRRRRRRRING"
Hot! Hot! Burned my leg on it
Needs to cool of. And I stop.
Pull on over to the ice cream shop
I eat some cream and hop on my bike
Ride on back to my whores tonight
They say I'm real cute and they buy me clothes
Shh I've only got two inches but nobody knows
Back on da bike and make my way back to my place
Still got cream all over my face
When I get back home my momma says with a grin
Hey white boy where the fuck you been?
I smile and laugh and say I been riding my bike.
Next day I get out on my bike and before I go
My dad says wait
Its almost eight, dad I need to go
Dad says today's the day boy-o.
I sigh, and cry for my precious bike
Is being repaired in a new way
From on since today I only gots
TWO WHEELS
No more
Trike
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I am the one who you are seeing no longer is the sun keeiing me from dreaming closer and nearer heartfelt and dearer our fingers touch and you pull me close in such a way i sigh you make me cry from your deep grip i know i wont slip from you my faith is true and through all of this, im here to save you, catch you. I will not miss

As I lie Dying, I whisper.

And here I am, dying. And there I was falling.

My heart is broken, I poisoned my soul.

My blood is thinning, my game must be over.

And here I am, crying. And there I was crying.

The sky is black--it's night.

My hands shake warily.

And here i am, feining joy but feeing pain.

And here I am closing my eyes eternally.

And there I was...
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Is someone out there?
Please come to me it is my time of need I cant see through my soul any longer thought I was stronger and I aint. He's gone, he left me standing here in the dark
In the pouring rain make me suffer through this hell this time I've taken it rather well
Into my own hands.
Hold me down keep me from seeing my eyes my face
My skin bleeding I saw to quick I saw no soul
Nobody told me, I didn't know! I had to have my
Best girl tell me straight up the terrible truth
Now I realize the subtle reality
I curl up on the floor, and fall away from the
Door. The light goes out and I wake up…
It's morning again


I only wanted some serenity. I thought pain over my internal pain would help. It didn't. If I was upset, I dealt with it. But I am never happy. I am trapped in a sea of white, where at the bottom it is so bright I cannot see, and the surface of this icy liquid is blacker than night. That is where I fell in. Into the blackness. It suffocates you,then you sink into the water. As you go deeper, the water becomes lighter. So bright white you can't open your eyes, and the worst is yet to come! The further you sink the brighter it gets the ice is now fire it's so hot your skin is burning now engulfed in flames you scream but to no avail, the water is gone and the heat is eating your flesh melting your body you feel your blood boiling your bones snapping, jaw ripping, ears enclosing, nose dissolving, mouth covered with an alcohol drenched rag and then there is nothing. As you lie there in the black you still cannot open your eyes, your true eyes, but you feel something touching-no, feeling you, taking your clothes from your body, no escape can be made---you are being raped in this blackness, now your mouth is being invaded by a man...his private in your lower area, another in your mouth, you're paralyzed, your hand is now another tool for a man, and when you can open your eyes at last, a hole is forever pierced into your skull killing you, being thrown into a garbage bag, then into the garbage truck, then for conserving room the truck crushes all in its puny bin...you are now in oblivion, forced into...nothing.





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