I fear

What is my problem?
What do i fear?
why does it seem
like i wanna bring
tears?

I fear getting close
because I know
I'll get hurt.
I push all my
friends away.
But i really
want them to stay.

Maybe I get bored
and need excitement
or maybe i'm
just scared.

Scared of betrayl
losing trust.
scared of
getting crushed.

I love them
but yet i push 'em away
just because of
one white lie or
my jealousy act
Just because of one
lousy mistake.

I should work it out
and not get mad
but i just get too emotional.
too attached.
too jealous
or just too sad.

Truth is,
i think i like the drama,
the pain,
and the tears i get.
but because of
my emotions
i ruined a great
friendship.