Void, the only feeling

Void, I know it isn't the ideal solution,

But that's all I can feel right now.

I can't do anything, think of anything.

Everything in and around me is filled with this void.

All I can do is look into this emptiness and lose myself in it.

This hollowness in my heart, this feeling of nothingness is better,

It is better than the pain I'll feel once I open my eyes and realise the truth,

It is better than the tears that I'll shed once I wake up from this nightmare.

If I can't live in a world with him,

Then I'd rather live in this void where I'll be lost forever.