Why are you interested in me?
You've moved on with your life.
People say you hate me.
I hope there not right,
For your sake, not mine.
People say you don't care,
Does that mean you do?
Whether or not you ever did,
Even after all this time,
I still care about you.
But I won't get my hopes up,
I won't fantasise or dream.
You’ve found someone new to love,
Why are you asking after me?
I know I can't say much.
I was happy when I heard you've got a job,
Happy that you're living your life,
And finally moving on.
Well if you want my story here it is.
I wake up still early like I used to,
I sit in class my mind wonders to you.
I walk alone, lost in days gone by,
I wish for drugs, the addictive kind.
I try, I fail, to feel love for someone new,
My thoughts are always stuck with you.
I do all the things I missed,
But that doesn't mean I forget.
I come home and write a poem like this,
A poem I know you'll never read.
I sing songs, the old and the new,
The song with the words I wrote for you.
That song where every letter was true,
I sing new songs to wish the best for you.
I get angry and learn how to cry,
I wish for pain of the physical type.
I beg for drink of the alcoholic kind,
I forgive you then close my eyes,
And dream of you.
But you hate me; you're not interested in me,
After all why should you be?
I told the truth,
And put anger in your heart.
In doing so,
Gave you a new start.
But don't listen to the rumours you hear,
I'm still the same girl who dried your tears.
I'm still the girl, who tells the truth,
I'm still the girl who cares.
I'm still the girl, who trusted you,
I'm still the girl who was there.
If you don't love me,
You will always know me,
I won't ever change.
I may live my life in solitude,
It’s safer than the danger.
I may be the insignificant survivor,
But I'll never be a stranger.