My eyes close, the electrical lights blurring into blackness.
Panicked voices fade into a pleasant song.
All is dark, all is silent.
I lie, no longer feeling any pain, just a lightness in my heart.
Then I see a light, more there is a light in my mind,
Then I feel a tugging, and I think I hear a 'snip',
Then I'm free, with languid movements, I turn my head,
I see my pale body lying still, mouth still smiling.
I turn away from the scene, and instead, face the light.
I wasn't just a plain light, it was faceted, like a diamond.
It sparkled, glittered, shone.
With dreamy gestures, I move further into the light.
It's warm and it curls around me.
I can see something ahead, a woman.
She's tall, with golden hair waving down her back,
Her eyes are kind, feathered wings incase her body.
She holds her hand out to me.
I hesiate for reasons I don't yet understand.
For the first time since the light, I feel unsure.
I feel empty, like I'm missing something important.
The woman frowns as I turn away.
Even through the silky light,
I see you.
You're holding my hand, you're crying.
I then feel a violent tugging backwards, away from the light.
You're pulling me back.
I feel your hand around my heart, guiding me back to you.
I follow, glancing back only once, the woman is gone,
But I no longer care, the light holds nothing for me.
I feel like I'm sliding into cool water.
I open my eyes, the light is gone.
All I can see are your eyes, your beautiful clear eyes,
Full of worry and love, deep love.
I feel your hand, wrap around mine.
You lean closer, I feel your breath on my ear,
You whisper tenderly,
'Don't do that to me again.'
I laugh quietly, I wasn't planning on it.
It was your love, your love alone,
That brought me back,
That kept me alive.