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Submitted: Mar 30, 2008 Reads: 61 Comments: 7 Likes: 3
The Idiot that I am
I've done a million things wrong
My own wants before other's
my own decisions make my life hard
Yet I can't stop myself
The Idiot that I am
I hope one day
the loathing goes away
That I can control myself
stop making mistakes
I hate myself
the person that I've become
It would be so much easier
just to be numb
But it doesn't work that way
my consciense won't let me
And I still continue
The Idiot that I am
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Difficult to break a pattern sometimes and harder still to love oneself, warts and all.
Posted: Mar 31, 2008
i've had moments like this poem. and since this poem is about things going on in your life right now, my best advice is to be strong. eventually you'll learn from your mistakes and things will get better. after reading the series, you seem to be at a rough patch right now. hope things get better for you. as they say, theres always a light at the end of the tunnel. ^^
Posted: Mar 31, 2008
Wow. All of your poems are wow. It's just that they are strong. I feel as if I am being pulled in every time that I read one.
Posted: Mar 31, 2008
aww, i know EXACTLY how you feel. I hate myself too. but i don't know what to say, other than you wrote this amazingly, so keep up the good work! :)
Posted: Apr 1, 2008
I really like this poem. I can relate with it a lot because of a lot of the things that I do everyday. Its a really good poem.
Posted: Apr 12, 2008
I know that feeling! I feel like that so often. I greatly admire your writing skills. You make me so jealous! Anyway, I love your poems. Write more! XD
Posted: May 9, 2008
hi! fb. i found the title interesting but the poem is equally interesting. if "That I can control myself", v'd be God. interesting. ;-)
Posted: May 10, 2008
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