I am truly sorry, Mother
the way I have made you feel tonight.
I overreacted, it is so childish of me.
And I thought you have raised me better.
I would do anything for you,
to gain back that of your trust
and even your love.
Please forgive me.
Time and time again,
I mention that it will never happen again,
but it returns,
never giving much warning.
I always make that promise,
to make a change in my ways.
It is too hard for me
and I have no idea why.
And time and time again,
I mutter the same three words,
their meaning means nothing to you by now.
What else can I do except mutter them into four?
I am truly sorry.