Different?

I'll try to write something I haven't done before.

Because I don't like keeping things the same,

Although mostly I have myself to blame.

But I need the variation that doesn't bore.

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I want to feel free, be open-minded.

Escape from the dullness of reality.

I want something with more sensuality.

For once I want to NOT be reminded

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That's there's so much to do,

Life is asking something from me,

And I'm not sure how much more I can take.

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I guess there's no escape from you,

Stuck in a world my mind doesn't want to be,

Longing to fall asleep, but staying awake.