Fuck me...

I might be good at things,

But if none of it matters,

What do I care?

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I might have good intentions,

But if I can't do anything?

What's the use?

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I'm trying to do things I can't do.

I'm trying to be selfless.

I'm trying to help the best I can.

I'm trying to rid my mind of these ridiculous thoughts.

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You might picture me as a saint,

But I'll still feel like a jerk.

You might think I'm happy sometimes,

But I never am.

And probably never will be...

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So fuck me. I don't give a damn.

I don't give two shits about myself, and I feel fine.

Life defeated me, that's all...

It's only natural I want to kill myself all the time.