Forget about the label, all that counts is if you're standing on your own two feet, ready and able.
To take on what life brings to your table. Face it up front and positive instead of the opposite where you leave when no problems get solved. That is when you stay un-evolved and you can never face head on the places life takes.
You and you alone get stuck in the muck once again feeling like a shmuck because you gave up when you could have stood up, gave It your all but once again you did nothing at all.
Try to look in the mirror, take a good look at your win figure, when you've all respect for yourself down to your pinky finger. You let the world slip by while you just slither, it just goes to show why your life is down low when it could have been bigger
They say it's not the dog in the fight but the fight in the dog in your situation there's no fight at all and I have no pity when you haven't tried it all. KO'D in the first round, you chose to lie down before the bell even made a sound. When did you lose all that you had, your face was expected to always be around until you disappeared out of self-pity and fear. I never thought you would fade away from a life that showed you your own way, that kept you alive and kept those demons away.