The Dope Game

My application for forgiveness

Long denied and cast away

I must contend for my redemption

Thus begins a losing game

Substitution seemed the answer

Something else to kill the pain
Although seeking something deeper 
What found me was quite the same

Yet satisfied with what I tried 
The dope worked like a charm
To ease the hurt and make things work 
Assuring me no harm

Suddenly- The boat got shaky 
As the cost for joy increased
Though I didn't have the money 
The drugs still wait for me

From then on I was willing 
All I need is to get high
As I'm planning future binges 
Speed preoccupies my mind

I sold my soul for these addictions 
I won't stop until I'm gone
I try hard not to admit it 
I had lost and they had won

Face to face with my own master

And the keeper of my soul
My desire overwhelms me, I-

No longer in control

This life's not worth the living 
If my life is not my own
I chose these pills against my will 
And now I can't go home

We watch my body whither 
Wane too weak and frail for looks
I don't care for my appearance 
Just one hit is all it took

This world says things are over
There's no choice but to give up

This hell was too expensive 

Though my life was not enough

Glinda Bustamante 1999