Pretending to smile

I am so tired of pretending everything is okay,my tears are starting to show and my smile is fading away. Sometimes when I say " I'm okay" I want someone to look me in my eyes,hug me tight and say "I know you are not". I tear my heart open,I sew myself shut,my weakness is that I care to much,and my scars remind me that the past is real,I tear my heart open,just to feel. I never changed,I just got tired of pretending I was happy. Sometimes the happiest people you know,are the saddest people you will ever meet. The smile on my face has been fake for as long as I remember. Nothing' sounds better than fifteen minutes explaining. For sale: One heart. Horrible condition. Will take anything for it. Please. Just cut it out of my chest,please,and end all of my suffering. You will never know how much pain I hide behind my smile, and you will never know I'm a damn good actress.