When I close my eyes I see your face and dream that you are around me.
In my dreams you become my hero and save me when I'm lost.
Thanks to you I live in a life of fear and expectations.
Promises that were never meant to be kept,
Desires left untouched, that is what you have become.
The deep interrogation of love is the result of your presence in my life.
How can my happiness be opposed with who I love?
Either I will have my greatest desire and loathe IT too.
Or someone else will provide the joy I so need.
I'm scared to have illusions, you being my only one.
My heart is tired of hurting, indirectly, QUIETLY, and harshly.
I'm afraid to feel, I'm afraid to breathe and feel you in my every vein.
I'm afraid to like you.
I'm afraid to have you deeper in my soul.
I'm afraid because I know you are firmer than you were yesterday.
I'm scared to have you, to show you,
To tell you,
I LOVE YOU.....