Sell Me Myself
I cannot be selfless. Please, I’m selfish
I am. Don’t look at me like that
The pair of truths burning my eyes
You know not but I know
You never knew but I have always known
I have…always known that I love your existence
I don’t know what to do with myself, but you do
You can free me if you can reach me
All the while my eyes have been travelling distance
The distance you took, along the movements you partake in
How glorious the movements!
I captured them slowly, but wished I were faster to capture every bit
Or I wanted to tell you to perform the movements only slowly
But I am selfish, because you don’t know the pain
The pain I had to experience to get by
Without your knowledge of me loving you
Loving you is like gravity receding from reality
That’s okay, because I’ve avoided the moments to tell you
Coward? I wish that were my real name
But my name of which you have knowledge
It doesn’t hold my tender heart
Oh, how happy you would be!
If only you knew!
If…only you knew!!
Yet with gravity receding from reality
You won’t feel the tenderness and heaviness of my heart
My heart has been carrying all of this love but I…
I just avoided the opportunities
A Coward? Yes, I prefer that name
That’s okay, because I can’t prevent the heaviness of it…
Of my heart be not heavy and felt
Which is why you have to sell me
I cannot sell myself but you can sell me
But to sell me you have to love me
Even a little. A micron.
Or even close to a little but quite none
I would know
I would know the love even if it’s for someone else
I would know it’s from you
Because I know you that well
Sell me myself so my existence won’t mean nothing
Sell me because if I ever were to be given another opportunity I would avoid it
Cowardice is my nature
But my love for you is my strength
Sell me myself before gravity no longer exists
Sell me if you wish to feel the tenderness of my heart
Or simply…forgive me.