End it all!!

All so silent

All so peaceful

All at rest

Then bam

You come in

You ruin it all

I don’t know what to do anymore

Im confused, scared

I cant do it anymore

Every time I look at you I see those angry eyes

Those mad eyes

That face that haunts my dreams

I have tried so hard

Giving you every chance

But you ruin all

How could you?

You say you love her, us

But you do this?

I was scared!

I needed my daddy!

But you were long lost in that crazy mind

I trusted you

And you threw it in my face

You threw my last bit of hope for you away

How do you think I felt?

Having to protect my mother from my father?

It crushed me

But I had to

I had to protect the person you claim to love

From you

The look on your face

Your crushed face

Your heartbroken face

It crushed me

It haunts me to this day

And I cant deal with it

I need an escape

I need to get away

I need to do something!

All this stress

All this worry

All this pain!

All caused by you

By this family

By my family

And im a broken person

No one can fix me

Im irreparable

No one wants a girl with baggage

No one wants a girl with problems

No one wants me

I don’t blame them

They can live in their happy lives

And I can go back to hell

Where I belong

Im not worth anything

Not tears, not love

Nothing

How do you do it?

How do you be so happy?

How can anyone be so happy?

Why cant I be happy?

Why cant  be loved?

Am I really that bad?

But I've accepted my fate

I know I deserve it

I just hope it ends soon

I want it all to end

The pain, the heartbreak

Please, end it all