I'm scared!

I'm scared

I'm scared of the outcome

I'm scared of what you will do to me

I hope you understand

For it was a mistake

I'm petrified of what you will think of me

I'm hoping you will understand

For I have a secret

It’s a bit disastrous

It could ruin me

All that I have worked for

Everything I had gained

The respect

The happiness

Could all disappear

In the blink of an eye

My life

Gone

Never a smile again

No laughter in this life

The pain will run deep

Twisting my every thought

Making me long for the light in my life

I knew there would be consequences

And I now have them

I'm scared of what will happen

If my life could ever go to the way it was before

Or is it gone?

Will my life become a dark shell?

Only seeing

Never participating

Gone in a blur

Never gaining

Always loosing

Someone help me please

I need to get out of this dark hole

To find the light again

Start gaining again

Smiling

Laughing

Being happy

But it will not happen

I see that now

It is irreparable

Broken

Just a long gone past

Shrouded in darkness will be my life

No more joy

No more happiness

Just a darker version of my life

Never living life

Just watching

So I have now accepted my fate

My life will just be a dark shell

Shrouded in darkness

Never to see the light of day again

Just darkness

Maybe there will be hope someday

But not now

Hope slipped out of my grasp a long time ago

And now I am submissive to life

It has taken away my spirit

Never to come back

My life

Shrouded

In darkness

Never to see the light of day again