Urges...

Temptation

Urges

Needy

This addiction

Is ruining me

I try to get away

It works sometimes

Then it comes back

The urge

The need

To bleed

To watch the blood come to surface

To feel the sting

To feel the numbness

Let it take me away

Make me forget

Helps escape

Repeat the motions

Again

And again

But no

I need to stop

Just for a moment

Clear my head

Let me think

Is this wrong?

I cant

I'm weak

I just cant

I need help

Will anyone help?

Can I get out of this cycle

Do I want to get out?

Is the pain worth it?

Can I handle it?

I have for this long

The crushing pain

The braking heart

The deadly blade

All for me

All on my own

The select few,

Who are there for me

Live a world away

To you,

I am happy,

Sometimes sad

To me,

I am dying,

Always in pain