The False Confessions of a Hateful Lover

It's crazy how I yearn for love but love just doesn't look for me. And even when I look for love, it runs the other way from me. If loving is so hateful then I don't want love to love me. I'm locking up my heart cuz it always breaks my heartbeat. I've always been a lover but now I'm forced to fight for love. I'm controversial to myself if I let that fuck me up. I'll give my heart away andbe heartless for the moment. So when they've come to stab my heart I'll tell tell them it's been stolen. I throw away my emotions, and youd say I'd be insane... If I didn't throw myself to the invaders before the spies fuck up my brain. I've never in my life felt so in and out of hate. Never thought I'd lead a life that was so controlled by fate. But if fate is in control then I can't say that I lead it. My new conclusion of love is that I don't really need it. And if it so happens that love decides to want me back. It's gonna have to work, bend down and kiss my ass. & Maybe!..Only maybe I'll consider coming to. But re-loving what I once loved...is really hard to do. Like resparking a match that's been lit and dipped in water. It's a challenge to win back the love of Torre Bodden's daughter. This is war and you're a pilot I'm shooting missiles from the ground. So like your plane, don't get your hopes up. Cuz I'll be glad to crash you down.