Void

To fill a void

I go to excess

Never truly

Loving myself

I'm too fat

I'm too thin

I like to cut myself

I am numb

I want to be loved

Need to be

Why does no one feel

Like I do

Do you know?

Could you know?

How it feels

to be me

You see me smile

          But I'm a thousand miles away and I'm crying and when you touch me, it hurts, and to you I'm fine...

                but I'm empty, sobbing, in pain, won't somebody help me, love me, need me, want me, WHY CAN"T I JUST DIE, I HATE THIS WORLD, I HATE ME!!!!

How can I hate myself, when I love you so much?

Your effulgence

My light

Absent

See me

Me