diamond-The List of Lovers Lost

I wish thatI could feel

The way I thought I would

I wish that I could deal with this

The way I thought I could

I wish that I could be as calm as I pretend to be

I wish that I could be the shell,

That’s all I let you see

I wonder what it was,

That I forgot to do or say

I guess I kinda knew that it would all end up this way

Now is the time I ask for space,

As you go to take your rightful place

Upon the list of lovers lost

The list that comes at heart’s high cost

Replaying in my mind, the words you used to say “We're through.”

Reiterating to myself the lie “I never did love you”

I’ll say I didn’t love nor like you

More than all the rest

I’ll tell myself I didn’t love it

When you were sleeping on my chest

I’ll squeeze the toothpaste from the middle

Just because you hate it

I’ll make love’s mental tombstone

Of concrete, and then steel plate it.

I’ll let the mayo touch the mustard

Just because it makes you mad

I’ll talk about you to my friends

As if it doesn’t make me sad

I wish that love was as overrated,

As I always made it seem

I wish I could believe,

That this was all a dream

But this isn’t going to hurt me too bad

I know I can pull through

I’ll tear down my wall to build a bridge

And use it to get over you

Goodbye Tanya